Journal ~ Eating a way to end my life.

                                                                                                      7:37am 7/11/2014 I have gained back 5 pounds a month for the last 4 months. My highest weight was 450ponds and I went all the way down to 290 pounds. But since I stoped burning myself regularly to coup with the worthlessness I feel I have been eating more and more. I know my…

Journal ~ broken, feeling of.

June 30th 2014  1:39am A mother’s family A father’s family Even a stepfather’s family And might out of all them people I have two people that gives a carp about me.  That would out of the blue just call or stop by to ask how am I. Or respond if I really needed something.  Yes…

Wellbutrin XL / Latuda journal (week One)

3/16/14 2:14am – Feeling not so tired / down. Did a lot this weekend with my daughter and a friend and her kid. – so only three days into taking the antidepressant. I feel less sad, less down. All the thoughts are still there. All the doubts are still here too. I dont kbow what…

Saphris / Latuda journal (week Three)

Even thou I am not on the Saphris right now does not mean I am not logging how I feel on the other two and that my dr might not talk me into talking it again.  I just have concerns. I am only taking the Latuda and klonopin right now but see my PDoc on…

Saphris / Latuda journal (week Two)

3/1/2014 2:07am – on the 20mg now. Started it yesterday before I went to bed. I have a little more engery but I dont know if its because I slept for 10 hrs or the increase. I am still depressed. I still feel urges to self harm. I still hear voices. I still see people…

Saphris / Latuda journal (week one)

2/22/2014: Started the Saphrigs black cherry flavor today. (I am now on Latuda 160mg, Klonopin 1mg, and Saphris 10mgs)  It tastes not so good and numbs out my tongue for a few minutes. I hope which is dangerous that this helps. I did only take 5mgs today and will only take 5mgs for the next…