Category Archives: Journal
Journal (5.18.13)
So I have been working for almost 7 months I have my daughter in my life when her mother wants her to be I have been stable in my house … Continue reading
Vegetarian Chicken Pizza
I made a vegetarian pizza today, I used Morning Star Chicken Strips for the first time and they are extremely good. They are the ones with Italian seasoning just in … Continue reading
Putting together my daughters room start to finish. (Updated as I go)
I started this process on the 1st of February by cleaning out a room I use as my office. I have taken everything from there and move it into other rooms, like my books … Continue reading
First post of 2013, and its about Ativan (Lorazepam) [Journal post 1.1.13]
I have a love/hate thing going with my Ativan today. After taking about three months worth last night, or about 135mgs (.5mg x3 a day x 30) My love for … Continue reading
Journal 10.11.2012
So my addiction is food, I know how stupid that sounds and laughed at the idea when it was first said it to me. But it is true. It sucks … Continue reading
Journal Stuff 10.7.2012
Something I need to save for my therapist. It is a conversation between me and my “mother”. And putting it here makes it nice because if I forget to print it out then … Continue reading
Pain / 9.30.2012
I hurt and feel sad i have this emptiness i cant feel but try with food. I eat and eat till i am fat. Then the feelings of failure and … Continue reading
Calorie & carbohydrate check and a realization 4.28.2012
Well this morning I woke up weight in and gained a pound. So I asked a question on a message bored then started to look over my days and realized that my calories have … Continue reading
Health/calories question/worries 3.26.2012
If you have a bad eating bad like your intake is only 1237 cal, should you put off working out? I know that this is way to low and normally … Continue reading
pathetic and alone 4.25.2012 ** Possible SI Trigger***
You know what I hate most about the pills, I am forced to take, is that in makes me sane enough to know that I am pathetic and alone. I … Continue reading
My time at Circle C & The Mel Blount Youth Home of PA
This is a post that I am working on about my time at Circle C group homes. I was in two house there, and messed up the opportunities that I may … Continue reading
4th Week of My experience with Latuda ~ Journal 4.11.2012 to 4.17.2012
April 11th 2012 – Woke up at 6:45am I have my Wednesday therapy appointment and have to walk down to my new bank. Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voices, (4.0) | … Continue reading
Yesterday was a bad emotional eating day, 3200 calories. 4.16.2012
Yesterday 4.16.2012 I was doing good till lunch, after lunch I called The Westmoreland county medical transportation people to change my Friday therapy appointment and was told that things are changing and that: For my Wednesday appointment I would be … Continue reading
Service Dog Journal. Updated as things happen.
So I have decide after about a year of debaite and talking to my therapist and former case manager to start the process to get then train a service dog. … Continue reading
My experience with Latuda Week April 4th to April 10th
April 4th 2012 – Woke up at 7:30ish, and didn’t get to sleep till after 11pm. So happy about that one. Had my therapist appointment walked for about 20 min … Continue reading
How I spent my Easter – Journal 3.8.2012 4:00PM
Hello all and happy Easter if you celebrate it. Well I am going to try to spend this holiday with my mother side of the family well at least part … Continue reading
Journal ~ 4.6.2012 8:42am
Well it is Friday morning. I dislike Fridays because all the outside time I have to face. And all the stuff I have to do, I have Therapy Go to … Continue reading
3.27.2012 to 4.3.2012 latuda journal
14 days on this new medication. So here is the 2nd week totals. 63 green or okay & 19 green where >.5 48 Orange or Caution 17 Red or Waring danger zone —————————————————————————- … Continue reading
Journal 4.3.2012 9:50am
So decided to find a new house to rent. I am here looking at one now and thinking all negative thoughts. I want to move but have a nice little … Continue reading
Saturday weight in ~ weght loss Juronal 3.31.2012
So I have gone over the feeling I get ever Saturday when I wake up and the unfounded doughs I have mainly because of my mental health issues which can … Continue reading
Up early getting blood work done – journal 3.30.2012 – updated
Well its Friday and I dislike Fridays but today stinks for many more reaons 1st is I had to get up at 5:30am to get ready to leave to get … Continue reading
The most recent scare of my life, thanks wordpress. ~ 3.29.2012 2:00pm
I had just got done posting and post about herbs when I was told my word press that I violated there terms of service for some reason and they deactivated … Continue reading
My experience with Latuda (Anti-Psychotic Medication) ~ Journal
Hello readers, thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to read this! This is my journey down the road to “normal” I only hope that this Latuda … Continue reading
Why I am done selling things online! 3.12.2012 10:41am
I use to sell alot of stuff online, I could even say i had a small bunnise doing this but the fess for selling stuff online for someone how is … Continue reading
Daily Horoscope & Thoughts 3.11.2012 ~ 9:17am
This sounds way less then a day or week and more like a life reading for me. I am the planner, always thinking 5 steps ahead, always having a Plan … Continue reading
3.10.2012 8:13am **Weight loss / Journal Post**
Well it’s Saturday and I woke up and the first thought on my mind was that it is my weekly weight in day, I was nerves and had all the dough about if I … Continue reading
2/26/2012 10:45am *Journal*
I hate this nervous feeling I get waiting for the taxi to take me to my nutritionist office. The did I do enough to have weight loss this month. Is it going … Continue reading
2/27/2012 10:42pm *Journal*
I cannot let go of the feeling that if was my fault. I know logistically that as a child we have no control or choice over the abuse we suffer. … Continue reading
Animal Symbolism of the Goose
Birth Totem – Goose – December 22nd – January 19th Birth Dates: December 22 – January 19 Clan: Turtle Constructive Qualities: Sociable, Articulate, Passionate, Humorous, and Sensual Conscious Objective: To … Continue reading
Why do people do Lent wrong?
Lent noun (in the Christian religion) The traditional purpose of Lent is the penitential preparation of the believer—through prayer, penance, repentance, almsgiving, and self-denial. Its institutional purpose is heightened in the annual commemoration of Holy Week, marking the Death and Resurrection … Continue reading
How I Get Myself Going During Depression
I answered these questions on a webpage and thought I would post this stuff here too. Mike G How I Get Myself Moving 1st. Survival: There is no one but … Continue reading
Taking the time now to sit with your feelings and acknowledge them will save you much distress down the road.
I receive the daily OM via email every day. I thought this one was worth sharing because I wish I would have realized this along time ago. – Mike G February 8, 2012 As the Earth … Continue reading
2/8/2012 ~ 10:36am
So I had a bad day yesterday. I am just tired on “getting through things”. I don’t know why I just cant get my life in balance, it seems like … Continue reading
2/7/2012 ~ 9:37am
Well I just heard back from the Health coach “Kelly” at UPMC, my insurance plan, and just like the nutritionist she was no help. She said and I quote “don’t look into … Continue reading
2/1/2012 ~ 9:55am
Ok this is what a web page told me. I would have to consume about 3,728 calories a day to maintain my current weight of 418 lbs. Goal Weight is lbs … Continue reading
Capricorn
Capricorn Astrology December 22 – January 19 Capricorn Strength Keywords: responsible patient ambitious resourceful loyal Capricorn Weakness Keywords: dictatorial inhibited conceited distrusting unimaginative Capricorn and Independence: Capricorns are very independent … Continue reading
Journal – 1.10.2012 – 11:11pm
I am depression but can’t show it. I can’t just lay down and do nothing. I have to survive because surviving is the only thing I have ever been good … Continue reading
1.9.2012 – 11:50pm
So 2012 has tried early to kill my spirit. Has it idk, but the stresses from last year definitely follow me into this one. I am faced with many many … Continue reading
1.1.2012 ~ 3:30pm
New Years seems less important to me as I get order, it use to mean a new year a fresh beginning a fresh start. Who comes up with this shit. Your beginning is when you … Continue reading
General Daily Horoscope 1.1.12
How about that, and I didn’t even know I was looking for a lover that is not tangibly manifest-able. And i understand “skills in order to reach satisfaction” tho. General Daily … Continue reading
12.31.2011 9:56pm
Well Its December 31st 2011 and I am thinking to the new year hopeing it will be better but thinking it will not be. I think this year (2011) was … Continue reading
12.28.2011
I have broken rule number 1 so many times why the fuck do i even have it. Rule #1 Never have anything you can’t just walk away from. Rule#2 Always look forward. … Continue reading
12.25.2011 Christmas
I did not get what I wanted, I never do. I guess somewhere in my head I have convinced myself if I wish for it long enough it will come … Continue reading
12.19.2011 10:51am
I had the most messed up dream(?) about a friend being pregnant. And the most prominent thing was that she was so demanding, wow. Not in like a bad evil … Continue reading
12.18.2011 2:57pm
“I have only known you 14 hours, but I feel like I have known you my whole life” She said looking at me with those big green eyes. I had a dream again but … Continue reading
12.13.2011
It was a bad night last night, I am just so tired of eating and blowing my diet. I ended up at rite aid looking for the healthiest junk food. Right so … Continue reading
Suicide Booth
Why is it in the 21st century we do not have these or flying cars yet??? Wehn you read or watch anything form the 40′s or 50′ they … Continue reading
11.26.2011 ~ 9:36
You know my memories of things are so tainted, I think or process thing is the best positive way and it has become clear to me that the way I remember things have … Continue reading
11.23.2011 ~ 10:19am
So tired no sleep last night. “but it was worth it” is what I will say once I am not tired. Thinks I want to do today well … Continue reading
Thought of the day.
Stupidity is like an infectious pathogen, the only way not to get infected is to stay far away from people carrying it. ~ Ekim2012
Thank you for visiting my blog, and taking the time to read my post. I hope you find it helpfully and interesting, please feel free to leave your thoughts and comments. If there is something you would like to ask or want to see please email or message me. ~ Mike G
Mike’s Weight Battle
Michael J Granata
