Thoughts from a broken mind
Well it’s Saturday and I woke up and the first thought on my mind was that it is my weekly weight in day, I was nerves and had all the dough about if I was pushing myself hard enough this week. Cough I have eaten better, what did I eat that was not good. So then I got on my Saturday weigh in cloths, I wear the same thing every time so that I know the lost weight if any is from fat not a difference in my shoes weight or short etc.
I lost 5.5 pounds since his last weigh-in 3.3.2012! And the total lost 62.9 pounds so far.
Which put a small smile on my face?
But I have been really thinking about why I can’t be happy about all the weight I have lost so far, every time I see that I lost weight the first thought the goes through my mind is not good enough. I have lost 62.9pounds in about 7 months and my mind say that should be 70 or 80 pounds. I think it has to do with my worry that one slip up and I am back to the beginning. That one depressive or psychotic episode could set me back being they usually last weeks.
The question I am facing is how do I retrain my brain to enjoy my victories in life?