Thoughts from a broken mind
I dislike Fridays, why because it my out of house shopping and dealing with bills day. And this one was worse then most, I about had a panic attack in Aldi store, I dont know if it was the lack of sleep, medication, having to deal with my step-dads attitude, or something else but I was screaming very loudly inside.
I had but up for about 27 hours at that point and had run out of a few medications because the week before my Step-dad would not get out of bed in time so the pharmacy was closed when we got there. SO I had to wait a week past refill date to get my medication so I had ran out of two on Thursday.
And for some reason my step-dad had a bad attitude and keep snapping at me like I did something wrong, oh wait I did I wanted to go food shopping so that we had food to eat this week. My bad. But it is not worth fighting with stupid people anymore.
Anyway the thoughts and voices where going strong, the paranoia was highest its been in almost a year. I felt like stabing someone and running away. And by the time I got to the pharmcy I was crawing out of my skin, but downed 4 anti-anxiety pills and a hadlo and was feeling better in 30 min, I hate and yet need the pills soooo much.