Double Sided Razor (2/28/15)

I have always waned a double sided razor. Maybe just for the iconic feel of it being the cutters tool of choice. I know like most that is not true. I will use anything sharp. I have used moslty a craft kit which i never found sharp enought.  I ordered a fre of these and…

Thinking A Lot (2/25/15)

I have been thinking alot about GOD, me and brokenness. Religious people tell you not to question, never ask why. Because thinking i am sure is a sin. But when the God you stand by even when you desperately beg him/her to take away the people in your head does nothing. Do I not have…

emptiness (2/23/15)

To Feel Care For. What does this feel like? Will it be the ending of the emptiness that hurts my chest? Will it be a warm all over feeling? Will it just ever happen? Written by Mike G Knowing that this like everything on this site will do more harm then good to me.

Frustration (journal 2/3/15)

My frustration is in what Einstein called the definition of insanity. I do the same thing over and over and expect a different out come. I do not do this intentionally. i do have hope that this time will be different. I should just face the fact that I am broken. That I don’t fit…

Why? 10/14/14

I use to be able to say I never ask God why. But that has not been true for some time now. Recenty it has been why cant I have one thing to live that will not hurt me? I adopted a cat from a local shelter. My daughter want a pet and she picked…

I am fraud – 10.7.14

I am working the best I can with my new position at work. The doubts are all over the place. The feeling of failure in every decision. Am I doing the right thing? Is this going to have the best outcome? I feel like a am faking it. Like I am a fraud and someone…