Why? 10/14/14

I use to be able to say I never ask God why. But that has not been true for some time now. Recenty it has been why cant I have one thing to live that will not hurt me? I adopted a cat from a local shelter. My daughter want a pet and she picked…

I am fraud – 10.7.14

I am working the best I can with my new position at work. The doubts are all over the place. The feeling of failure in every decision. Am I doing the right thing? Is this going to have the best outcome? I feel like a am faking it. Like I am a fraud and someone…

Suicidal Thoughts: Tips for Coping & Safety Plans

If you are like me you have or are fighting suicidal thoughts, and I want to tell you that you are not alone. Having thoughts of wanting to take your own life is a common among people dealing with depression or other mental health issues. Remember that the thoughts in your head are not always…

Being a parent with mental health diagnosis

I am fearful of not getting things right. I am told a thousand times a day that I am not good enought to do anything I am doing at that moment..And I am fearful that the voices in my head are right about that. And most of all I am fearful that I am screwing…

Journal ~ Eating a way to end my life.

                                                                                                      7:37am 7/11/2014 I have gained back 5 pounds a month for the last 4 months. My highest weight was 450ponds and I went all the way down to 290 pounds. But since I stoped burning myself regularly to coup with the worthlessness I feel I have been eating more and more. I know my…